|I usually don't post my photography here, but on my instagram...|
"If it takes the death of a young man that everybody loved to realize that we hurt people with our words and actions, imagine what it would take to see that we could change it. I only knew Andrew for a short time but I never knew that he would make the decision to take his own life. I never thought that this would happen in Galway. I was a Chamber Singer with Andrew last year and I thought he was very nice, we only talked a few times but I came to like him. This year I became friends with his brother Cody and I realized that I had been pushing away my friends but this year I opened up and found that I can make friends and all of the terrible things that I told myself were lies that I told myself because I over exaggerate and I needed someone to blame. I blamed the mean kids at school and I blamed myself also. I told myself that I was worth nothing and I had no purpose. I considered suicide on my birthday because of family problems but then I talked out the problems and went to see a therapist and am now taking depression medicine. But now I realize that it's not worth dying to get rid of the pain because it will affect everyone and just spread the pain to more people. If I were to dye on my birthday, I wouldn't have gotten to meet all of these wonderful people. I wish that he didn't take his life because he left behind a whole school and a family that will miss him forever. I joined a bunch of things so I could keep myself occupied and happy and it worked. I am not sitting home all by myself, doing nothing and giving myself time to get depressed, I am staying late and making me a little stressed trying to balance everything but at least I am happier."
This moved me the other day. I was sitting, locked in my closet, because of the fighting going on. I brought Herbert (my laptop) in with me and decided I could write another "entry" to a word document that was pre-existing from 2012. I added it into one document to make a "digital journal" for when I need to write.
I hope you all have had a great year! I promise to post some new art up soon and I will continue to draw during the summer.